Christmas l/c ment

Subject: Christmas l/c ment Fri Dec 12, 2008 4:30 am

I thought I was ok with Christmas this year, but i guess I didn't really think about it until the pressure is on for the big day approaching way too fast! worried

I have ordered things for the Angel Room, haven't shopped for the kids yet!!!! And I feel so bad about it cos I don't really want to shop for them when I have babies *missing* so sad

It is crazy too trying to settle in our new house as well as getting Christmas sorted.
We have managed to decorate a little, still need to finish that off, but I walk around the house trying to block it all out....
I kinda think to myself, Christmas is a celebration of Christ, and to me it is about family, love and joy....
Besides the nest I have helped make with DH and also my special brother, I have no family. I wonder what it would be like with my dad still here too. Not so much my 'mother' cos I don't really feel for her when I am in need of love, maybe cos I never got it from her.... annoyed

I have also got the flu atm so im not in the best shape to be motivated to shop on top of all the emotions....
I just wish my Angels were here.....

so sad